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I wanted to make a new blog on wordpress but someone took yoonhee, and I am too lazy to think of a new blog name so I will resort to xanga for now. L'automne dans San Diego has come and gone. God has touched my heart and my life in too many ways and I have been encouraged & rebuked week after week. It's funny how He talks to you about the one thing you're struggling with via the most unexpected and expected ways. God is creative. and He knows exactly where your heart is, and what sin it is about to settle upon. And here are some things I have learned this quarter:

1) I am completely incapable and unable on my own. Submit to the Lord. I have nothing to be stubborn and prideful about.
2) I burn myself every single time I cook. Every time. Not once was there a time I escaped from burning myself. I am great.
3) I also like to cut myself.
4) I have slowly grown a love for cooking and vicariously enjoying the food. Thank you for enjoying my food even if it might have not been that great. The food network is my new favorite channel (O:
5) I have grown exponentially awkward. Probably due to the fact that I reside in 3516 or with the yippenee during all my spare time. Antisocial I have become.
6) I would have missed many classes, had Joyce not been my roommate quietly asking "Tina? Don't you have class at 8am?"
7) Which leads to number 7 - I love having a roommate :]
8) God answers prayers.
9) I relieve stress by cleaning - doing the dishes, seeing the pretty lines after vacuuming the carpet...etc. (=
10) (If it is in God's will) I really really can't wait to become a professor & write on black chalkboards all day.
11) As exhuasted as I may be while going to work, I am energized by working with Max. I am blessed to have an opportunity to work with him and make even a minute difference in his life.
12) Friday nights challenge & energize my soul. There is so much delight in serving, despite its incredible difficulties and burdens. God truly is full of grace.
13) I like candyland. Do you like candyland? Because I do. I'd like to stay there for a while, maybe for good [:
14) I am blessed.
15) I am extremely prideful about psychology and I get severely offended when people look down on it. I know it is easy to stereotype it as the "easy-major-out," but I work hard, I love it, I am passionate about it, and I have a goal I'm working for. I need to stop being so prideful though ):
16) I am blessed.
17) I kill jokes, comments, anecdotes, you name it - I am the killer of all. ]: Basically I am lame. But it's okay, 3516 accepts me for who I am. [:>
18) I can watch every Friends episode over and over and over again. We laugh before the funny part even happens because we've seen it that many times.
19) FRS orange flavor is a no-no.
20) I am blessed.
21) God blesses obedience.
22) His grace is truly sufficient for me.

I must go face the cold.
Good day and good riddance (:

It's week seven already and I finally have a day off to kind of jolt to a halt and think about what in the world has been going on. This quarter system makes the 10-weeks seem like a whirlwind of whatdidIlearn? to midterms to finals to bambam goodbye hello next quarter!  ow I just got a cramp on my foooooot. boo. 1220's have served to be an appropriate and necessary breather amidst the chaos throughout the week. I found myself robotically burying my nose into my textbooks at geisel and at one point wondered- what am I doing? Is this what undergrad is about? Class, work, and without any second guessing allowing geisel to suck up all my spare time throughout the week? Where is there ever time to live my life? Or is this what it is? Whatever "living my life" entails. I guess I am a student. And as of now, it entails studying- which I will be doing for many more years to come. But really, I do like having a goal (albeit extremely daunting at times).

Being in a family setting over the weekend - a highly contrasting atmosphere from the AJ triple S-ness going on in our 3516 home (bicycle strobe lights + wallace + bunny ears + more to be kept within our apt) made me desperately miss home for once. Of course the Cho fambam's always in my thoughts but I had an actual longing for them over the weekend. Being with another mother made my own feel untangible and I desperately needed to hear her voice because it felt so foreign and distant. My point being, this is a cycle that I fall into quarterly but i guess the shift in environment only heightened it moreso. My physical burn-out and need to be babied starts at about week 9 but it has come early this quarter. I miss the fambam - being a 12hour-flight away from home surely gives me little room to be a baby. Haha surely, that is a good thing.

I want to travel. Hop on a plane and go around the world. Hit every continent. Flood my eyes and my soul with all the beautiful things of this world! But no. Tomorrow I am back to 8am classes and geisel and work and studying and midterms and papers and all that equally fun stuff.

I think I was spoiled by 'Us.'

Anyway. it is 8AM and I am going to make use of my day off. Run errands, prepare for something something, study, relax, study, read, read, love, eat, pray, repeat! I feel so dazed and out of touch with myself. But when ever am I fully 'in touch' with myself. But time to feed my meek and constantly failing soul. Only only only only only by His grace. My goodness. I have been rebuked nonstop the past few weeks. yet I still fail. boo me.

Thank you to those who supported me for the autism walkathon. [: Although it wasn't really the "walkathon" I had expected, it was really a good time of raising awareness and learning about different intervention programs as well as promoting the program I work under (for Max!). It was a humbling experience and thank you to those who contributed in finding a cure. And to those who didn't even open my e-mail (I can see who did/didn't) shame on you. jk. (=

My thoughts are so scattered and my heart is so unsettled and confused. It's literally beating faster than normal right now. o_O.
But like my theme song for this quarter - I just want to be still and know that He is God and He is good. Rest my soul in Christ alone.

Good day and good riddance.!